→ Envy (for people's success, for possessions, ...)
→ Accusation (be thankful of what I have and just change it to a much better state)
→ Hate (very serious energetic thief)
→ Ungratefulness
→ Inefficiency
→ Fuss (scattering attention/ multitasking in heavy-thinking activities)

I often find myself not doing my best (almost at every activity which involves another people) because I feel like people above me (managers, employers) are fundamentally wrong. In many perspectives: how they lead a workflow, what's their final objective, how they communicate. And so I deliberately not trying to do my best, so that those people don't get what they want.

Now this kinda behaviour (1) takes so much vital energy, and (2) wastes it in a wrong direction: instead of mastering my skills, I do the opposite, so that in a long run I get neither skills, not the best product. And very often I blame myself for doing that which takes even more vital energy and kills desire to do anything.

I've done some work on what it is I want to get in my life in the end and it seems overwhelmingly encouraging. So I just wanna change that behaviour and start mastering my skills (which I'll later use for my objective) no matter how wrong the team I work in may seem to me. All in all, I sometimes change my opinion about good and bad.